Time wasted

I wasted my own time...

I watched every single man I have ever encountered or loved discard me and move on. It was not always for the better, but it was always from me. Many return to me and I foolishly think its because of my undying love and support. It is never the undying love and support and always the stability and sex. 

The fact I can feel a void and invoke a feeling puts me at the top of the list for women to call when a nigga just needs to get a nut and boost in life.  Oh, but not to be honorable and make a wife cuz that is reserved for the women who they deem worthy or allow them to push over. 

So, I blindly allow all these transgressions on my heart and body till I decide, and they realize I have nothing left to give. Of course, its always back in the wind till I need a refill again. Well, unfortunately, fools become wise and I find that I am truly a prize. Something more than a girl that has thick thighs and easy on your eyes...

I wasted my own time not realizing that the energy and work put into the men I thought I was helping. I should have put into myself. I should have taken those classes, gotten that degree, improved my life and guarded myself better. 

All in all, I wasted my own damn time, so let us not waste any more...